busy and sick

( korbyn with his oxygen)

wow this week has gone by so fast.... we have been pretty busy..... jeremy's aunts are here from new york and we have been going going going!!! but they leave today :( .. hopefully we can go and visit them sometime this year... we can defiantly use a vacation....

i felt so bad.. last Thursday i woke up with a sore throat, and didn't think anything about it... late that afternoon i started with a runny nose.... i figured it was allergies... but later that night i had a full blown fever of 101.8 and had really bad cold sweats... what do u do when ur sick and a mom??? its not like there is a substitute mom that fills in ur place... i still had to be mom and try not to get my poor baby sick.... so i was constantly washing my hands and hand sanitiser has been my best friend for a while but i had to constantly reapplying, hoping it would zap the germs....

even with all my efforts to try and prevent korbyn from getting sick... he is sick.... poor baby is just full of snot... and man he hates getting his nose sucked out... i think he is going to hate the color teal.. because any time he even sees the bulb seirenge she starts to scream... poor baby... i feel so bad, last thing i wanted was to get him sick... oh and on top of it... i took him to the doctors on Monday and they gave him one of his immunizations..( korbyn is allergic to a few meds so they give them to him one at a time....) poor baby.... he got a fever just from the dang shot.... don't we all love our doctors...

on another note... we go to korbyns pulmanologist (lung doctor im not sure if i spelt that right)on the 2nd.... there is a possibility of them getting rid of his oxygen....i am so excited, but i dont want to get my hopes to high... i don't want to be disappointed, if he needs it he needs it... i hate the dang thing because its like a leash, we only can go so far away from the oxygen tank, without having to move the tank or disconnect.....man wouldn't that be nice to go out and not have to lug around his oxygen and his apnea monitor... i don't know how i do it every time i go anywhere i have to lug, korbyn and car seat, oxygen, apnea monitor, diaper bag/purse, and depending on how long breast pump... cant wait to get rid of some of my gear... so lets just all pray that is lungs are Strong enough to get rid of his oxygen....

but despite everything im just grateful he is doing good.... my little man is a trooper.... i will have so many stories to share with him.... i love being a mom... it is the most wonderful thing in the world....

( korbyn at doctors appt)

wow.... 2 hrs later....

o-my-gosh.... i have been messing around on the blog for 2 hour now... i cant believe it... it just sucks u in... it is amazing how many people have it... no wonder all of my sisters are addicted & have been begging me to start one...

i just wanted to say hi to so many people i have not seen in so long... i have defiantly been living a different lifestyle for the past 5 years..... wow does time fly... but man does having a baby change ur life.... especially having a micro preemie baby!!!!( that's what they call 27 weeker's) we have been humbled so many times with our miracle baby and so many blessings have been answered... i am indeed thankful...

me and Jeremy have been together for the past 4 and a 1/2 years & have been married 2 years and 5 months... in the last year i have watched jeremy turn into a totally different man... A better man... he was a smoker of 9 years, and a partier... but in the last year he has slowly given up his bad habits, & it really has been a blessing in disguise... Jeremy has quit smoking almost 10 months, gave up drinking 5 months... and now has been taking the missionary discussions for 3 weeks... i am so proud of my husband....

when i met Jeremy... the church was not important to me... i really wasn't planning on ever having it be apart of my life and promised Jeremy i would never force it on him... we lived a different lifestyle...and Sundays was our only day off together... forget 3 hours in church... never had any problems with the church, just had other priority's... having what we called fun....going out on the weekends and waking up with the worst headache and sleeping in the next day.... what fun is that...

well while korbyn was sick....i mean really sick..... i was more scared at this point than just having a preemie baby... i really didn't think he would make it threw the night... my dad & my brother in-law Chris preformed a priesthood blessing... after the blessing it was amazing.... the whole room just felt peaceful... at that point we knew he would be alright... After that night Jeremy asked me what my dad did... ???what was a blessing...??? and then lead into questions about the church...??? it opened the doors to him and he wanted to know more about the church????

the last 3 weeks we have been meeting with missionary's.... Jeremy has been taking the discussions.... he has been really accepting... has even been reading the scriptures the missionary's have given him.... and even reading more.... he has asked me cute questions like, how do u pray????, who r the laminites and nephites??? were they the native Americans that lived in America when the mayflower came to the new world???? it has been a great blessing for me too, because i get to learn more about the church... i am surprised at how much i actually know.... i did listen in church an retain some knowledge... i am excited for him to learn more.... My biggest fear is all of his friends are not members and live a different lifestyle & most of my closer ones that i have had party too...( he really hasn't seen them to much since korbyn has been born) so it is nice to see old friends that are living the right way and open some doors to friends that do the right things... so that he wont be tempted to go back to our old ways.... because i know the church is true and i want it to be apart of my family.....so please forgive me for being a bad friend and not coming around....i just felt we had nothing in common, and like i said i had other priority's... i miss u all and hope to hear from u soon......

we r so proud!!!

kinda gross i know.... grandma sunny (or oma grandma in German) is crazy!!!! korbyn was having a hard time going poop... so oma decided to let korbyn go potty with his diaper off and i worked.... after doing it a few times, he stopped pooping with his diaper on.... he would sit and grunt and grunt until u took his diaper off... once off with in a few minutes...korbyn would leave us a big stinky surprise.... so Oma was determined that korbyn was going to be easy to potty train... we all laughed at the idea... he cant even sit up on his own let alone sit on a potty.... Oma sunny is crazy....!!!!

Well Oma was determined to at least try so she went out and bought a potty chair the next day.... and she was so proud..... Oma would put korbyn on the potty and hold him and start grunting with korbyn....she would grunt.....then he would grunt..... (it was the funniest thing to see) but, to our amazement korbyn would go poop on the potty... we really still thought t was just by coincidence that he went when she set him on...he would go...our whole family was in aweee...every time the family is over.... they want to see if korbyn can really go potty on the potty chair...

its crazy...It has been over 5 weeks since we have started this potty chair business.. and i think i have only changes 2 dirty diapers... one we were out at a doctors appointment and i didn't have the potty chair and he grunted for a few hours before he went... another time i gave him some milk of magnesium (a laxative) ...i think i gave him a bit to much because boy did he go.... and he couldn't control it... So i am proud to say korbyn is potty trained !!!!(well pooping anyways....) which makes it nice to just have to change wet diapers.... who would of ever thought... Grandma starr says korbyn has us potty trained... because he just has to start grunting and we have him on the potty.... he is still to young to tell us so we take grunting as our sign....

ok im an so new to this

i was wondering can someone help me figure out this blog thing..... i have no clue how to ad friends or invite them to my blog... or change my back round or do any of the neat thing i c on all of ur guy's blogs... can somebody please teach me.....thankx :)

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these picture were taken in the end of may so he is so much bigger...thankx jodi

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wow... mommy life is busy...... but i have returned...

anyways.... korbyn is doing alot better... we have been threw alot of ups and downs with this little dude.... but i am sure we are on the road to recovery... he now weighs almost 15lbs... he has come a long long way from 2lbs 7oz.... we love this little guy and we call him our miracle baby, or even our million dollar baby.... (with all of his hospital stays his bills have way exceeded a million dollars....thank goodness we have insurance or oh my goodness.....but still we have had 2 pay quite a bit, but not even close to how much insurance has covered........)

Korbyn is now at a fun little age... he is 5 months old from when he was born but really only about 2 months old term, or gestational age..... he is so dang cute and smart... he smiles at me when i talk 2 him, and it is amazing how he totally recognizes me.... he gets so excited when i pick him up....(forget it this baby is so spoiled, he doesn't really understand being put down....) I need to start weening him of me a bit... (but in the hospital his neurologist told us not to let him stress out, or cry 2 much.... so i just hold him all the time....) im really not complaining, because to tell u the truth.... i love having him in my arms and love it when he gazes at me and looks into my eyes.... its the sweetest thing in the whole wide world.... its amazing how these babys can just make you melt..... i love my new family and i love being a mom....i am so blessed to have this baby, its amazing how much he as changed our lives.... for the better... he has made us stronger.....

( these pictures i took from jodidavisphotography.com.......my sister-in-law is a amazing photographer and i was privileged 2 have her take our pictures...) i hope she doesnt mind me taking pictures from her blog.... i need 2 find my attachments 2 my camera so i can post ones that i have taken... i hope u enjoy.... jodi is amazing and we love and appreciate her... if u even need to get pictures taken you should consider her... defiantly check out her blog...

Hello everyone!!!

Hello everyone!!! i have now entered the blogging world..for months i have watched and visited my sisters and sister-in-laws blogs.... now that i have a little more time on my hands.... i figured i should join the blogging frenzy....

The last five months of my life have been a trial... but defiantly rewarding.... i was pregnant with a little boy who decided it was time to come to this world at 27 weeks, weighing 2 lbs and 7 oz.... man was i ever scared, we spent 9 weeks in the hospital with korbyn.... the great thing about the hospital was, i really got to know him, and how to care for him before i go to bring him home.... (i didn't just have a baby like most and get to bring him home and try to figure out what a shock being a mommy full time was) i kinda was eased into the mommy thing... well when he finally came home it still was a shocker...how much work being a mommy really was....holly hanna.... korbyn is hungry every 2-3 hours.... forget sleeping!!!! (between pumping milk, feeding korbyn, trying to remember what med. he got last, and comforting my baby..) for the first month or so felt like a walking zombie...

well being at home didn't last long.... korbyn started having seizures... (due to being premature) we were back in the hospital after a few weeks... the evaluated ed korbyn for a few days and we were getting ready for discharge, when they threw a new med into the mix.... (which i had a bad feeling about to begin with) with in an hour of taking the med. he stared to wheeze, i called the nurse in and she said he looked fine... 3 hors later i had to wake him to eat, for korbyn that defiantly wasn't normal, he wakes on the dot 2-3 hours.... so i notified the nurse... feeding him was quite the chore since he was so lethargic... i told the nurse that tooo....( i felt bad that poor nurse, probably thought i was so annoying..) well the next time it was time for korbyn 2 eat i had to wake him, but this time he looked pale and was cold tot he touch... i called the nurse again... ans she said maybe it was because the ac... ( i knew it wasn't because i had 2 blankets on him and i didnt have the ac on to high) i asked if she would take his temp... so she went and got te thermometer and took a rectal (the most accurate temp..) he was cold 78 degrees... she rushed out and got warm blankets and called the doc... i noticed his ribs were being sucked in every time he would take a breath and his head was bobbing around with the breaths... i know something was really wrong... i called the nurse again.. right when she walked in, korbyn stopped breathing and they had to bag him to resuscitate him... he still wasn't responding... i was so scarred... i felt so helpless & felt as if i should of asked for a doctor sooner... korbyns system shut down... they started throwing all of our belongings into the hall way... and the alerted the hospital that there was a code blue, in our room.... with in a few minutes our tinny room had 15 people in working on our tinny baby... i lost it.... i didnt know what was going to happen and have never been so afraid in my whole life...

the doctors did all that they could do in the peeds floor and haled korbyn to the picu..( pediatric intensive care unit) for a week they pumped drugs into my little mad, put him in a induced coma, and feed him over 11 Ivy's ...into a line that they put in his neck that went straight to his heart... they also placed him on a ventilator and a nebulizer..the first few days in the picu.. he wasnt stable... i didnt sleep either... i just watched his monitors and startled every time an alarm would go off... the first few days they were resuscitating him every 3 hours... witch was awful to watch... i stayed by his side and never left the hospital room.. i felt it was all i could do, watch the nurses and make sure no mistakes were made... ( oh i left this part out... on the peeds floor they mixed up his meds a few times... it really made me doubt the nurses capabilities) on the 3rd day the docs opted for a blood transfusion to help him with his white and red blood cells and the oxygen levels in his blood... it was scary knowing that we had gotten to this point... in the mean time dad and chris cam in and gave korbyn a blessing... and withing the next day or so there was s huge turn around.... korbyn gradually got better.. he had to learn hot to eat & be weened to a lower amount of oxygen...

to be continued......

well korbyn is waking from his nap so... i will continue my long story when i get another chance....